xftlogx

xftlogx @ 2006-12-01T19:39:00

2006-12-02T02:39:55Z

Livejournal is waaaaaaaaaay updated since I've last been on.

I'm taking the SATs tomorrow and I'm scared!

xftlogx @ 2006-09-05T21:06:00

2006-09-06T04:06:46Z

DONE.
Just like that.

xftlogx @ 2006-09-05T16:38:00

2006-09-05T23:54:40Z

"Go with the flow."
"If its meant to be, it will be."
"If its not meant to be, it won't be."

I just have to live with the understanding everyone else has.
Its too tough :-(

xftlogx @ 2006-09-04T12:53:00

2006-09-04T20:03:25Z

Its so hard to get over someone that you care about so much. :-(
This is my second time. I hate it so much.
I wish you could just look at their pictures, the stuff they gave you, the memories and say "WOW. I don't care in the least."
But it ALWAYS is like, "WHYYYYY?"

Stupid stupid stupid.
& & &
The thing that sucks about getting over someone is how you one moment will feel like, "I'm done with him/her, this is great I can't belive I was actually sad about it!"
Then the next second you go back to, "Why me, why does this have to happen. Everything is terrible."

I like the idea that everything gets better, that when one door closes three more open. I can't wait to see the outcome of this whole situation.
Right now I'd give an arm and a leg to be with Derek.
But I know thats not fair to him.
I care about that boy too much, and I never let myself show him that.
Thats my only regret, I never truly showed him how much he meant to me.
I guess everything is one big learning expierence.
I hope everything works out for the best? That'd be great :-)
Yeah, that'd be really great.

xftlogx @ 2006-09-04T01:41:00

2006-09-04T08:42:23Z

DUDE. HAHAHA.
My livejournal is soooooo immature.

"Poop in your face."

Damn. I need to grow up.
I'll be working on that.

xftlogx @ 2006-09-04T01:17:00

2006-09-04T08:26:47Z

Life has been pretty stupid the past couple weeks.

Lets do a run down on the things that have happened:
1. I got to go bowling tonight :-). I suck at it. Love it.
2. We lost to Salpointe, I was so sad. But Thank God football Fridays are here, something to live forrrrr.
3. Senior year hasn't been all its cracked up to be. But I'm waiting for it to be amazing.
4. Derek and I broke up. REALLY REALLY SAD. But I've definatly had my share of the sad, and I refuse to live like that ever again.
5. I keep changing my mind on what I want to do when I grow up. Its making me frustrated.
6. Senior pictures are coming up. I've felt gross for seriously too long, I'm scared they won't work out well.
7. I hate when people post stuff online and make it so vague. Thats irritating as shit.
8. I thought I was being sooooo funny tonight.
9. I love my guy friends. :-)
10. I might go to the rodeo tomorrow with TEX, but then I just thought about it and realized I'm not gay.
11. I miss Amy so much, its disgusting.
12. I:-(

13. I don't really like life right now, but I think its going to get better. I just have to let it happen.

riiiiiiiiiight.

xftlogx @ 2006-07-05T09:29:00

2006-07-05T16:31:54Z

I have my MRI today, guuulllllp. I'm so scared. I don't want crappy test results back. Like last time we got scans, I HAD TO HAVE BRAIN SURGERY.
I am so sick of being like probed at.

Yesterday I got to hang out with my baby.
Whenever I'm with him, I'm just plain and simple.... happy.
ILIKEIT.

I just got back from San Diego too, it was very nice.
I'll post some silly pictures in a little.
Loveeee yaaaass

xftlogx @ 2006-06-24T09:52:00

2006-06-24T16:53:11Z

You got soul
You got class
You got style
Youre badass.

I'm going out today with my babycakes.
Lattttaaaah.

xftlogx @ 2006-06-18T23:01:00

2006-06-19T06:04:58Z

1. I HATE MY PAST SO MUCH THAT I WANT TO UPPERCUT IT IN THE FACE.
2. I LIKE DEREK SULLIVAN SO DARN MUCH.
3. I'M GOING TO SEE NACHO LIBRE ON WEDNESDAY WITH ME PAPA, I SWEAR IF ITS LIKE NAPOLEAN DYNAMITE I WILL KILL.
4. I HOPE MY PAPA HAD AN AMAZING FATHERS DAY, BECAUSE HES AN AMAZING FATHER.
5. I HAVEN'T SEEN DEREK IN OVER A WEEK, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFEEEEEEE?
6. I HAVE TO GET AN MRI(ANOTHER BRAIN SCAN) SOON & I'M SCARED SHITLESS.
7. I AM LIKE GOING IN AND OUT OF MOODS.
8. DID I MENTION I LIKE DEREK HELLACRAZY A LOT, & I MISS HIM ALMOST AS MUCH.

Latah crazzeees.

xftlogx @ 2006-03-01T20:11:00

2006-03-02T03:11:43Z

Tonight has been brilliant.

xftlogx @ 2006-02-27T20:10:00

2006-02-28T03:10:38Z

I misssss youuuuu

xftlogx @ 2006-02-26T19:07:00

2006-02-27T02:52:17Z

BOW CHICKA BOW WOW

xftlogx @ 2006-02-19T20:13:00

2006-02-20T03:13:43Z

I'm so happy, but I'm so confused.

xftlogx @ 2006-02-12T20:08:00

2006-02-13T03:12:56Z

I ate off a really nice Place mat today.
It said:
Today...
May beatuiful things happen to you...

Aw. Man.

I spent the night at my babies house, and had a lot of fun with her, her mommy, her bro-ha, and her duders dudey dudey.

Tomorrow is going to be a great day.
No matter what.

My brother is getting married in like two weeks.
I'm so excited that my family will be here.
I'm going to take like a gazillion pictures and post them all.
:-)

I downloaded that hippie song, 'Unwritten.'

YEEHA.

xftlogx @ 2006-02-01T19:56:00

2006-02-02T03:01:40Z

I love this girlie.

Shes fuuuuuun to be with.

I also love this hottie:

YUM YUM

xftlogx @ 2006-01-30T19:51:00

2006-01-31T02:52:02Z

My Budday.
Ain't nothin else I could need.

xftlogx @ 2006-01-29T18:30:00

2006-01-30T01:30:42Z

"listen to your heart.. no matter what your head says you heart will not lie to you"

crap.

xftlogx @ 2006-01-23T20:58:00

2006-01-24T04:05:58Z

Whatevah Whatevah, I do what I want.

xftlogx @ 2005-07-27T16:14:00

2005-07-27T23:14:52Z

I'd like to teach the world to sing in perfect harmony.

xftlogx @ 2005-06-25T18:42:00

2005-06-26T04:42:03Z

yo yo yo.